Our love was great,
inevitable like fate.
we hit it off, engraved in the memory
cause it's all in the past, yet when i see ya you're still so friendly.
waited so long for you to realize what you're missin,
but now i see: pointless days and nights spent wishin
wishin that you're still 'mine', hopin you would take the time.
i'm done and i'm through
i'mma do me, so you just do you.
^ I was doing my nails, and I painted the first coat and I was like, 'aw they look so nice! like they're perfect".
but then i did the second coat... and it's like why the frigg did I even ruin the nails? Now i Can't even fix it cause it's gonna look worse than it did. you can't make anything look better if they already look terrible.
So I came to the conclusion, I can't redo things.
One chance, and if you blow it then you blow it.
Things can't be done twice with me. either we got it or we dont.
apparently we didn't, don't push it this time.
you can't fix anything that was already broken.
you can't love if you just don't anymore.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
I'm not angry or anything at the moment. like i'm actually happy
but today i was at the mall with my mom and my dad.
they're divorced. before, my dad wasn't happy about the divorce. he was sad
he missed my mom he was miserable. and seeing him like that made me miserable too because i missed him and my mom being together
i know that their relationship while they were married was farrrr from functional. it was actually really really terrible. but like still... sometimes i wish that they would've just stayed together
sometimes i wish that my dad wasn't the way he was. maybe then my mom wouldn't of had a shitty life. maybe my brother would be different. maybe my sister wouldn't have to pretend to be so tough and independent.
i bet you don't know half of the shit i've been through. i'm definitely not boosting about it but i feel that i've been through a lot. it's been happening all my life. maybe this is the reason i act the way i act? i dont really know
people take advantage of the little things, like your parents sleeping peacefully every night. or having everyone in the family at home. or eating dinner as a family. or seeing your parents have a little laugh.
i hardly ever had that. or i actually don't see that anymore.
why couldn't i be part of a functional family? with parents who love each other forever and ever? why is there always yelling in the house? why does my mom have to leave? why do we have to leave? why is he throwing things? why is the police always involved? when will it stop?
^ the questions that were going through my head at like 7 years old...
everything is different now obviously, but it's so sad. i still cry about it all the time. because i can't spend the holidays with both my parents at the same time. or because i didn't have that "normal childhood". my parents would fight on the daily! and it would be really serious, sometimes too much to handle. and my dad would say and do really mean things to me. and my mom. and my sister. and my brother.
when i found out my mom had a bf i was happy for her but at the same time i was sad. something in my mind thought that my parents were gonna get back together. i wanted her to be happy, but i wanted my dad to me happy too.
my dad didn't know about her bf, until he dropped me off at home one time and he saw my mom's boyfriend's car in the driveway. my dad's face was so sad. when i got in my room i cried my eyes out. it's like i know that he still had hope. and like, how much would it suck that the person you love was with someone else? it was obvious that my dad regretted everything in his life and he felt bad for everything he's done.
when i think about the bad stuff that happened in the past.. i just put it in the back of my mind. but i can't live in the past anymore.
i was at the mall with my mom and dad today, and my dad has a girlfriend now. i think that he's moved on.
when my mom and my dad were together today, it was peaceful. they were joking around
and hugging
why couldn't they just be like that when they were together? then they wouldn't of had to get divorced and we could all be happy.
when me and my mom went in the car, omg she started crying so hard. she was like "it's really over"
i got so confused, but i started crying too. because she said something that i already knew.
everything is really over. all their feelings for each other are gone.
and my mom was sad because she never thought she'd feel like that. she wished that they were happy like that when they were married too.
she wanted to have a happy family just as much as me.
but they're over. they're over.
my dad's happy , my mom's happy, so why can't i be happy with them? i guess i just haven't gotten over the fact that my parents will never be happy together again. i feel that without my dad, my house isn't a home. like there's no structure.
sometimes there isn't even anyone home to talk to.
i want a family like the ones in t.v. shows and movies. i can't have everything i want though.
everything happens for a reason. that's what i tell myself.
but today i was at the mall with my mom and my dad.
they're divorced. before, my dad wasn't happy about the divorce. he was sad
he missed my mom he was miserable. and seeing him like that made me miserable too because i missed him and my mom being together
i know that their relationship while they were married was farrrr from functional. it was actually really really terrible. but like still... sometimes i wish that they would've just stayed together
sometimes i wish that my dad wasn't the way he was. maybe then my mom wouldn't of had a shitty life. maybe my brother would be different. maybe my sister wouldn't have to pretend to be so tough and independent.
i bet you don't know half of the shit i've been through. i'm definitely not boosting about it but i feel that i've been through a lot. it's been happening all my life. maybe this is the reason i act the way i act? i dont really know
people take advantage of the little things, like your parents sleeping peacefully every night. or having everyone in the family at home. or eating dinner as a family. or seeing your parents have a little laugh.
i hardly ever had that. or i actually don't see that anymore.
why couldn't i be part of a functional family? with parents who love each other forever and ever? why is there always yelling in the house? why does my mom have to leave? why do we have to leave? why is he throwing things? why is the police always involved? when will it stop?
^ the questions that were going through my head at like 7 years old...
everything is different now obviously, but it's so sad. i still cry about it all the time. because i can't spend the holidays with both my parents at the same time. or because i didn't have that "normal childhood". my parents would fight on the daily! and it would be really serious, sometimes too much to handle. and my dad would say and do really mean things to me. and my mom. and my sister. and my brother.
when i found out my mom had a bf i was happy for her but at the same time i was sad. something in my mind thought that my parents were gonna get back together. i wanted her to be happy, but i wanted my dad to me happy too.
my dad didn't know about her bf, until he dropped me off at home one time and he saw my mom's boyfriend's car in the driveway. my dad's face was so sad. when i got in my room i cried my eyes out. it's like i know that he still had hope. and like, how much would it suck that the person you love was with someone else? it was obvious that my dad regretted everything in his life and he felt bad for everything he's done.
when i think about the bad stuff that happened in the past.. i just put it in the back of my mind. but i can't live in the past anymore.
i was at the mall with my mom and dad today, and my dad has a girlfriend now. i think that he's moved on.
when my mom and my dad were together today, it was peaceful. they were joking around
and hugging
why couldn't they just be like that when they were together? then they wouldn't of had to get divorced and we could all be happy.
when me and my mom went in the car, omg she started crying so hard. she was like "it's really over"
i got so confused, but i started crying too. because she said something that i already knew.
everything is really over. all their feelings for each other are gone.
and my mom was sad because she never thought she'd feel like that. she wished that they were happy like that when they were married too.
she wanted to have a happy family just as much as me.
but they're over. they're over.
my dad's happy , my mom's happy, so why can't i be happy with them? i guess i just haven't gotten over the fact that my parents will never be happy together again. i feel that without my dad, my house isn't a home. like there's no structure.
sometimes there isn't even anyone home to talk to.
i want a family like the ones in t.v. shows and movies. i can't have everything i want though.
everything happens for a reason. that's what i tell myself.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
SO SICK
eff you fever, EFFFF YOU.
my eyesss are burninggggggg, nbdd.
So when it comes down to it, people are only living for themselves. That's what i love most about the world... 8-) I don't blame em though
my eyesss are burninggggggg, nbdd.
So when it comes down to it, people are only living for themselves. That's what i love most about the world... 8-) I don't blame em though
Friday, October 16, 2009
i kind of love life. just kind of though.
So like I don't really have a complaint in the world right now.
I'm in such a "it's whatever" mode atm , where like I don't really give a fcuk
that's kinda not good but... yeah i don't care.
Nothing really bothers me anymore, because there's no point in getting worked up for stupid shiet.
getting alright in school. pretty good actually. but i should really start trying again. i could get so much better.
Happy the weekend's here.
Then one more full week... and mommadukes is GONE! (Y)
woooooo to that!
and then the statesssssss:)
shopping & road trips > chocolate. and ice cream cake.
Yeah. Just saying.
So like I don't really have a complaint in the world right now.
I'm in such a "it's whatever" mode atm , where like I don't really give a fcuk
that's kinda not good but... yeah i don't care.
Nothing really bothers me anymore, because there's no point in getting worked up for stupid shiet.
getting alright in school. pretty good actually. but i should really start trying again. i could get so much better.
Happy the weekend's here.
Then one more full week... and mommadukes is GONE! (Y)
woooooo to that!
and then the statesssssss:)
shopping & road trips > chocolate. and ice cream cake.
Yeah. Just saying.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Love the one you're with
Hola!
"Never leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love."
^ That is the truthhhhhhhhhh.
First day back to school since friday, and I swear my teachers are speaking a different language.
My Goodness! I feel so stupid in class, haha I hate that.
But whatevs,
it's almost friday :) woot woot woot!
On another note, I'm dead tired. Today I did this whole like presentation video shiet, filming for it... took like 3 or 4 hours but it was worth it cause it's done!
Off to bed.
"Never leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love."
^ That is the truthhhhhhhhhh.
First day back to school since friday, and I swear my teachers are speaking a different language.
My Goodness! I feel so stupid in class, haha I hate that.
But whatevs,
it's almost friday :) woot woot woot!
On another note, I'm dead tired. Today I did this whole like presentation video shiet, filming for it... took like 3 or 4 hours but it was worth it cause it's done!
Off to bed.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Hey Theree.
I haven't felt the need to blog in a while, caught up in other things like school, homework, family, friends, sleeping. SLEEP <3!!!!!
but since i've been sick the past 2 days (fml) i have nothing TO do except watch tv.
hahaha, but I'm kinda bored of the t.v. now sooo what a better way to pass the time ?
Everything is whatever now, I'm learning that things can't always go my way.
Even when I want a billion things, I know that I can't have it ALL.
What a great life lesson I'm finally beginning to understand!! 8-)....
But I'm enjoying everything that comes at me, I kinda like surprises :)
I'm trying to live one day at a time, live in the present.
Because I'm always reminiscing and looking ahead- Living in the past and planning my future.
But maybe, just this once, I can forget about what happened in the past, be happy right now, and be excited about what's gonna happen next!
The best things happen when you least expect 'em. :)
but since i've been sick the past 2 days (fml) i have nothing TO do except watch tv.
hahaha, but I'm kinda bored of the t.v. now sooo what a better way to pass the time ?
Everything is whatever now, I'm learning that things can't always go my way.
Even when I want a billion things, I know that I can't have it ALL.
What a great life lesson I'm finally beginning to understand!! 8-)....
But I'm enjoying everything that comes at me, I kinda like surprises :)
I'm trying to live one day at a time, live in the present.
Because I'm always reminiscing and looking ahead- Living in the past and planning my future.
But maybe, just this once, I can forget about what happened in the past, be happy right now, and be excited about what's gonna happen next!
The best things happen when you least expect 'em. :)
Friday, September 18, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I don't really know what's worse,
knowing that someone you truly love doesn't feel the same, or knowing that they cannot live without you.
Knowing that they cannot live without you, literally. You are the only one who they can talk to, be themselves around, and the only person in the world left for them.
Maybe you don't understand how I feel, maybe you do.
Whatever, it still doesn't change anything.
Cause I was sitting and thinking about this and it's hitting me hard. I'm the only one for you, there's no one else in your life that has a true significance. Because you lost everyone.
And you think it's your fault, because of your stupid actions.
I'm practically the only one who stuck with you and never gave up on you because i know you and I know that you say things you don't mean and I know that you do things that you wish you could take back
The things you said and the things you've done to me and especially the ones I love hurt and they never left me. I still remember everything to this day, but I choose to forget about them sometimes because I know that deep down you're a really good person.
And now you have no one, the only woman you've ever loved is gone. Out of your life, that is. But she's happy now, and I wish you were too
I really don't want to see the day you realize the one that still has your heart has given hers to someone else.
because I know you want it back, I know you want everything back.
I see it in your eyes, you miss everything.
But I'm still here so don't blow it
I want you to love again.
I want you to be happy (like you were before)
I want everything to go back to normal(but I know it cant)
I just want you to smile, your genuine smile (that must have died with you)
'cause I love you.
knowing that someone you truly love doesn't feel the same, or knowing that they cannot live without you.
Knowing that they cannot live without you, literally. You are the only one who they can talk to, be themselves around, and the only person in the world left for them.
Maybe you don't understand how I feel, maybe you do.
Whatever, it still doesn't change anything.
Cause I was sitting and thinking about this and it's hitting me hard. I'm the only one for you, there's no one else in your life that has a true significance. Because you lost everyone.
And you think it's your fault, because of your stupid actions.
I'm practically the only one who stuck with you and never gave up on you because i know you and I know that you say things you don't mean and I know that you do things that you wish you could take back
The things you said and the things you've done to me and especially the ones I love hurt and they never left me. I still remember everything to this day, but I choose to forget about them sometimes because I know that deep down you're a really good person.
And now you have no one, the only woman you've ever loved is gone. Out of your life, that is. But she's happy now, and I wish you were too
I really don't want to see the day you realize the one that still has your heart has given hers to someone else.
because I know you want it back, I know you want everything back.
I see it in your eyes, you miss everything.
But I'm still here so don't blow it
I want you to love again.
I want you to be happy (like you were before)
I want everything to go back to normal(but I know it cant)
I just want you to smile, your genuine smile (that must have died with you)
'cause I love you.
Friday, August 28, 2009
quickie
I am tired
Whenever i friggen blog I'm always tired
but seriously, right now I'm so tired
I need to start getting into proper sleeping patterns cause uhhh
Hell's bout to start in like 1 week
BOOOOOO!
so I'mma update on my life tmrw. :)
Whenever i friggen blog I'm always tired
but seriously, right now I'm so tired
I need to start getting into proper sleeping patterns cause uhhh
Hell's bout to start in like 1 week
BOOOOOO!
so I'mma update on my life tmrw. :)
Monday, August 24, 2009
Nickels for my thoughts.
I am mad.
Lemme tell you something :
This is not Fantasy Island, it's the real deal. It appears you got your dream world mixed in with reality, but now I'm stuck up in this mess. Everyone's caught up in this mess. Do you think I'm stupid? I may have been before but now, I see everything crystal clear. If you loved us then why couldn't you just let us in? You should think about what you have right now, and not what you COULD have. But the damage is already done. You're already losing me.
But when it comes down to it... you've always been there for me. So.
I'll come around, maybe tomorrow maybe next week maybe next month but not right now.
Maybe if you just let it all out that night... then I would feel differently
Maybe when I call you back, you return the call (because i did call you back) I would feel differently
But you didnt
So That's how I feel about this whole little situation
Like I said, I'll come around.
Lemme tell you something :
This is not Fantasy Island, it's the real deal. It appears you got your dream world mixed in with reality, but now I'm stuck up in this mess. Everyone's caught up in this mess. Do you think I'm stupid? I may have been before but now, I see everything crystal clear. If you loved us then why couldn't you just let us in? You should think about what you have right now, and not what you COULD have. But the damage is already done. You're already losing me.
But when it comes down to it... you've always been there for me. So.
I'll come around, maybe tomorrow maybe next week maybe next month but not right now.
Maybe if you just let it all out that night... then I would feel differently
Maybe when I call you back, you return the call (because i did call you back) I would feel differently
But you didnt
So That's how I feel about this whole little situation
Like I said, I'll come around.
whaaa
I am.. dunno.
c",)
^K i figured out what that faceee was, and I was like laughing when Markkk finally pointed it out for me.
To kimberly:
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear kimberly,
Happy birthday to you!
Mmhmm, I know it's late on here, but yeah I'm pretty sure I greeted you on facebook like 10 times : ) HAHAH
tuesday, me + you + sandy with party hats... LOL KIDDING
kk so i NEEEEED to make a sephora trip like NOWWW, cause I'm on the website and I just wanna go and buy errything in there! Oh and I'm going to Tremendous todayyyyy! what whattt! I'm seriously so excited.. I've wanted to eat there since my sister brought home her leftovers :(:(:(:(
but now she's taking me :) and if she doesn't take me to sephora then umm...
I think I MIGHTT possibly just go to the mall by myself and go kerazy in that store
I'm about to go to sleep soon, because I think I'm actually tired before 4:30.
I'm listening to musiccc, and I've been listening to the same songs the wholee day !
playlist:
Houstatlantavegas Remix.
No Parade
Promise In the Dark
Hush Hush
How Many Times How Many Lies
Teardrops On My Guitar
(yeah.. taylor swift is pretty random in this little thang.)
ANyways,
i think i might just sleep now..
or not and just stay up. I don't even know what I do to pass the time!
c",)
^K i figured out what that faceee was, and I was like laughing when Markkk finally pointed it out for me.
To kimberly:
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear kimberly,
Happy birthday to you!
Mmhmm, I know it's late on here, but yeah I'm pretty sure I greeted you on facebook like 10 times : ) HAHAH
tuesday, me + you + sandy with party hats... LOL KIDDING
kk so i NEEEEED to make a sephora trip like NOWWW, cause I'm on the website and I just wanna go and buy errything in there! Oh and I'm going to Tremendous todayyyyy! what whattt! I'm seriously so excited.. I've wanted to eat there since my sister brought home her leftovers :(:(:(:(
but now she's taking me :) and if she doesn't take me to sephora then umm...
I think I MIGHTT possibly just go to the mall by myself and go kerazy in that store
I'm about to go to sleep soon, because I think I'm actually tired before 4:30.
I'm listening to musiccc, and I've been listening to the same songs the wholee day !
playlist:
Houstatlantavegas Remix.
No Parade
Promise In the Dark
Hush Hush
How Many Times How Many Lies
Teardrops On My Guitar
(yeah.. taylor swift is pretty random in this little thang.)
ANyways,
i think i might just sleep now..
or not and just stay up. I don't even know what I do to pass the time!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
no more.
I am angry/sad/CON-FUCKING-FUSEDD.
I am not lying, today was so shitty.
I actually fell asleep at FRIGGGGGGGEN. 6AM lol
and then I skipped singing today because I wanted to sleep in:)
Then i went to some nxt party with my daddy,
like he was the friend of the person who held the party, but it was all his family and shiet so it was kinda awkward cause there was no people to talk to :(
So i got there at like 5:00, and we left at freggin 10:30!!!!!!!!! suckS!
i went to the washroom like 6 times cause I had some bladder problem today
i swear i peed like 8 or 9 times in totallll. hahaha
oh then i got home and MY BROTHER LEFTT
I WAS SO HAPPY WITH LIFE OMGOMGOMGOMG you don't even know. my dad was driving through to go to my house, and then my brother passed by us. and i did a little dance cause I was like, YESSS i could go out.
and then i got home and my mom was like, your brother's sleeping @ his gf's house tonighttt. and then i screammmmmmed with joy!
and then i texted lyna. twice. and called her. twice. and she fucking didnt fucking answer and i wanted to kill her during that whole hour.
so everything was being like stalled and stuff
and we were all loafting hard, until finally alpha called and then lyna was like, igght. and shiet.
so we left. timmmmmys! and now... here i am!
but like.. i unno
iunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnno.
I am not lying, today was so shitty.
I actually fell asleep at FRIGGGGGGGEN. 6AM lol
and then I skipped singing today because I wanted to sleep in:)
Then i went to some nxt party with my daddy,
like he was the friend of the person who held the party, but it was all his family and shiet so it was kinda awkward cause there was no people to talk to :(
So i got there at like 5:00, and we left at freggin 10:30!!!!!!!!! suckS!
i went to the washroom like 6 times cause I had some bladder problem today
i swear i peed like 8 or 9 times in totallll. hahaha
oh then i got home and MY BROTHER LEFTT
I WAS SO HAPPY WITH LIFE OMGOMGOMGOMG you don't even know. my dad was driving through to go to my house, and then my brother passed by us. and i did a little dance cause I was like, YESSS i could go out.
and then i got home and my mom was like, your brother's sleeping @ his gf's house tonighttt. and then i screammmmmmed with joy!
and then i texted lyna. twice. and called her. twice. and she fucking didnt fucking answer and i wanted to kill her during that whole hour.
so everything was being like stalled and stuff
and we were all loafting hard, until finally alpha called and then lyna was like, igght. and shiet.
so we left. timmmmmys! and now... here i am!
but like.. i unno
iunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnno.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Yay for Allergies!
I am tired and all stuffy and shiet!!
UGHHH, okay so today... friday aug. 21st, i fell asleep at 6 am and had to wake up at 1130 i was sooooo sad, cause it was only 5 hours :(:(:( and then it turns out i didnt even have to leave until around 230! sad times sad times.
And I am seriously soso tired right now! lol i wish i could sleep but something's keeping me up
I worry too much sometimes
oh and you know what else is keeping me up?
FRIGGGGGGGEN. ALLERGIES. i just got them now
and my nose is itchy like fckkkk! oh my goshers I just really wanna get some sleep tonight.
UGHHH, okay so today... friday aug. 21st, i fell asleep at 6 am and had to wake up at 1130 i was sooooo sad, cause it was only 5 hours :(:(:( and then it turns out i didnt even have to leave until around 230! sad times sad times.
And I am seriously soso tired right now! lol i wish i could sleep but something's keeping me up
I worry too much sometimes
oh and you know what else is keeping me up?
FRIGGGGGGGEN. ALLERGIES. i just got them now
and my nose is itchy like fckkkk! oh my goshers I just really wanna get some sleep tonight.
Friday, August 21, 2009
i am okay.
Just one day at a time, i will deal. It's all good. It will all be okay..
I have such bad memory now, it's terrible
it took me like 2 minutes to remember when i did today
haha. So, my mom wwoke me up like she called and started telling me to get ready
I HATEEEE people calling me and telling me to get ready like seriously
it makes me so maddd, haha. cause I'm cranky and I have to wake up and shower right away.
anyways, thats what i did today, because... well... I love shopping, duh.
So i went in hope of finding a perfect gift for Kimberly.. and of course I failed at it. Turns out me and Sandro are now buying a gift together
so tmrw we're going out... to the mall... cause we're having a teenage love affair.
OKayyyy not something to joke about? LOL KIM IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE READING, SORRY HAHAHAHA. i'm totally kidding!
we're goinggg to buy something cute for you, regardless. I hoppeee you'll like ittt!!
kk so i have to wake up at 11:30 and I find it really hard to wake up in the summer if i don't have like 10 hours of sleep... lazy fucking ass i already know
but yah. Going to sleep right now
Oh yeah, I have to start wearing my retainer, cause I haven't wore it in like 2 or 3 months... :S:S:S yeah SO BAD, and yesterday night i wore it and omg when i woke up, IT HURT LIKE A BITCH YOU DON'T EVEN KNOWWWW. LIKEEEEE OMG it's an undescribable feeling. actually no it's not, haha it kinda feels like it feels when you put your braces in for the first time... yeah .:( hahah so i woke up at like 8 and i was almost crying.
ANYWAYS, sleep time for real now : )
Just one day at a time, i will deal. It's all good. It will all be okay..
I have such bad memory now, it's terrible
it took me like 2 minutes to remember when i did today
haha. So, my mom wwoke me up like she called and started telling me to get ready
I HATEEEE people calling me and telling me to get ready like seriously
it makes me so maddd, haha. cause I'm cranky and I have to wake up and shower right away.
anyways, thats what i did today, because... well... I love shopping, duh.
So i went in hope of finding a perfect gift for Kimberly.. and of course I failed at it. Turns out me and Sandro are now buying a gift together
so tmrw we're going out... to the mall... cause we're having a teenage love affair.
OKayyyy not something to joke about? LOL KIM IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE READING, SORRY HAHAHAHA. i'm totally kidding!
we're goinggg to buy something cute for you, regardless. I hoppeee you'll like ittt!!
kk so i have to wake up at 11:30 and I find it really hard to wake up in the summer if i don't have like 10 hours of sleep... lazy fucking ass i already know
but yah. Going to sleep right now
Oh yeah, I have to start wearing my retainer, cause I haven't wore it in like 2 or 3 months... :S:S:S yeah SO BAD, and yesterday night i wore it and omg when i woke up, IT HURT LIKE A BITCH YOU DON'T EVEN KNOWWWW. LIKEEEEE OMG it's an undescribable feeling. actually no it's not, haha it kinda feels like it feels when you put your braces in for the first time... yeah .:( hahah so i woke up at like 8 and i was almost crying.
ANYWAYS, sleep time for real now : )
Thursday, August 20, 2009
updatin x2
I am currently: okay.
Is there anything real in this world anymore? Cause the lights are gettin' brighter and plastic's all I ever see now.
I'm updating as much as i can remember.
Monday.. I can't remember. Of course. I think i just woke up and loafted in my beautiful likkle house.
Tuesday... I believe I was with CNuggets, and we watched the time traveller's wife <3
Seriously, it was so cute. We cried, lololol. but it is all good cause i liked it.
Then ran into my cuzzio + and her amigaaa. turns out we watched the same damn movie at the same time and we didn't even know.
and Apparently i saw her and some other person, and i didn't even know it was them bcause i am that damn blind now. GOshh, i need perfect vision again!
Oh and I took of my nails, maybe for a while times!
I am going back to pianoooo, I think it's final.
Put myself through sooo much pain tearing off those nails, geezzuh! but right when i took them off, I started practicing:)
Wednesday... to me, it isssssss still wednesday. but i didn't do anything fun. Just stayed home and loafted, the usual. Oh and played the piano for a while. Then went out and had pho with the mommadukes <3 she was flirting with the waiter toooo, omg. Lolll love her!
Is there anything real in this world anymore? Cause the lights are gettin' brighter and plastic's all I ever see now.
I'm updating as much as i can remember.
Monday.. I can't remember. Of course. I think i just woke up and loafted in my beautiful likkle house.
Tuesday... I believe I was with CNuggets, and we watched the time traveller's wife <3
Seriously, it was so cute. We cried, lololol. but it is all good cause i liked it.
Then ran into my cuzzio + and her amigaaa. turns out we watched the same damn movie at the same time and we didn't even know.
and Apparently i saw her and some other person, and i didn't even know it was them bcause i am that damn blind now. GOshh, i need perfect vision again!
Oh and I took of my nails, maybe for a while times!
I am going back to pianoooo, I think it's final.
Put myself through sooo much pain tearing off those nails, geezzuh! but right when i took them off, I started practicing:)
Wednesday... to me, it isssssss still wednesday. but i didn't do anything fun. Just stayed home and loafted, the usual. Oh and played the piano for a while. Then went out and had pho with the mommadukes <3 she was flirting with the waiter toooo, omg. Lolll love her!
Monday, August 17, 2009
updatin!
I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought that it would be perfect to do so today, cause I'm so bored atm.
THURSDAY: I was plannnnning to stay in my bed, but of course that didn't work out so well. My sister called and told me we were going for dinner with my dad. I also bought my uniform + my school supplies. WTFFF, so not ready for school!!! at all!! ughh! Might I add that summer 09 was total lamesauce, mostly cause of the gay ass weather. I hate all this like random weather changes, like can't it be constant! I HATE CHANGE!
FRIDAY: I can't even remember what I did friday, no lie. I forget things easily, doesn't that suck.
SATURDAY: I went to 2 fam jams. The 1st one was kinda boring, cause it's my white side and they don't know how to get down like the flips. hahaha k totally kidding, but let's be serious... we were watching golf. But I wasn't really complaining , I like golf :)
2nd fam jam was kinda cute, kinda boring though. me and my little cuzzios, oh and my aunt too, were watching cake boss. :) and one of my cousins was a little chatterbox, i kinda love her cause she was just talking her life away and i enjoyed it (L)
Got home around 12 ish and then talked to Lbeans, and she was all "yo we're sneaking out tonight" and i was all "k i wanna come!" cause i'm just fuckin annoying like that. lol. so they came pour me and then we went to pick up Cnugz. we all went to portcredit, sadtimes, CUTETIMES, and scary times... ummmm fucken raccooons!!!!! Adawggg drove me home, and then i was like locked outta my house. freakin panicking like fuckkk! hahahaha sorry guys!!!! again!! Then I got home and Mmmmmmmuffins was totally doneeezo and we were on webcam... LOL! fuckn drunko for real! (exposed)
SUNDAY: slept till 2, lol. then woke up and did some shit, cant even remember. totally useless. then me and my sis got into a fight, sooo anger today. lol. but now she's my girlprend again <3 so i went to church after, and then i asked my momma to take me to the keg, then to br. LOLLL, MAJJORRRR craving for steak + bbt!!!
THURSDAY: I was plannnnning to stay in my bed, but of course that didn't work out so well. My sister called and told me we were going for dinner with my dad. I also bought my uniform + my school supplies. WTFFF, so not ready for school!!! at all!! ughh! Might I add that summer 09 was total lamesauce, mostly cause of the gay ass weather. I hate all this like random weather changes, like can't it be constant! I HATE CHANGE!
FRIDAY: I can't even remember what I did friday, no lie. I forget things easily, doesn't that suck.
SATURDAY: I went to 2 fam jams. The 1st one was kinda boring, cause it's my white side and they don't know how to get down like the flips. hahaha k totally kidding, but let's be serious... we were watching golf. But I wasn't really complaining , I like golf :)
2nd fam jam was kinda cute, kinda boring though. me and my little cuzzios, oh and my aunt too, were watching cake boss. :) and one of my cousins was a little chatterbox, i kinda love her cause she was just talking her life away and i enjoyed it (L)
Got home around 12 ish and then talked to Lbeans, and she was all "yo we're sneaking out tonight" and i was all "k i wanna come!" cause i'm just fuckin annoying like that. lol. so they came pour me and then we went to pick up Cnugz. we all went to portcredit, sadtimes, CUTETIMES, and scary times... ummmm fucken raccooons!!!!! Adawggg drove me home, and then i was like locked outta my house. freakin panicking like fuckkk! hahahaha sorry guys!!!! again!! Then I got home and Mmmmmmmuffins was totally doneeezo and we were on webcam... LOL! fuckn drunko for real! (exposed)
SUNDAY: slept till 2, lol. then woke up and did some shit, cant even remember. totally useless. then me and my sis got into a fight, sooo anger today. lol. but now she's my girlprend again <3 so i went to church after, and then i asked my momma to take me to the keg, then to br. LOLLL, MAJJORRRR craving for steak + bbt!!!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Bedridden... for a day at least:(
I am hurtinnnn'
So here I am in my bed. blogging, and watching a movie on my laptop.
Soon, I will shortly be free from my nightmare, but then I'll wake up and I think it will all start again.
When I wake up tho, I'll have my beloved ipod & my pile of books to get me through the day.
in bed. cause I def. will not get up very often
I haven't felt this pain in a long ass time
I WISH i had like, a fever right now or something. broken leg, sprained ankle..
k i lie bout the last two, but I think you get me.
So here I am in my bed. blogging, and watching a movie on my laptop.
Soon, I will shortly be free from my nightmare, but then I'll wake up and I think it will all start again.
When I wake up tho, I'll have my beloved ipod & my pile of books to get me through the day.
in bed. cause I def. will not get up very often
I haven't felt this pain in a long ass time
I WISH i had like, a fever right now or something. broken leg, sprained ankle..
k i lie bout the last two, but I think you get me.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Goodmorning&Goodnight.
I am........................ bored, tired, stupid!
I am an idiotic child for staying up this late for no apparent reason, seeing as I have to wake up at 10 am, and well umm, i LOVEEE my sleep.
I need to learn to say no.
Actually, I need to learn to be mean!
Actually, I need to learn to stick to my decisions I make.
So off to bed I go!
p.s. KimB: goooodluck today girly! I know how stressful exams are :S I always took my theory tests in a cafeteria, and it made me nervous. lolol
RCM IS SOOOO SURRRIOUS, even with filling out your name and stuff... hahaha!
but you'll do great, duh!
love love love you, hope you feel better sooner or later!
i think you just need a little more lauren in your life. ;)
xoxox
(pls ignore the fact that I basically just had a convo with myself, lol)
I am an idiotic child for staying up this late for no apparent reason, seeing as I have to wake up at 10 am, and well umm, i LOVEEE my sleep.
I need to learn to say no.
Actually, I need to learn to be mean!
Actually, I need to learn to stick to my decisions I make.
So off to bed I go!
p.s. KimB: goooodluck today girly! I know how stressful exams are :S I always took my theory tests in a cafeteria, and it made me nervous. lolol
RCM IS SOOOO SURRRIOUS, even with filling out your name and stuff... hahaha!
but you'll do great, duh!
love love love you, hope you feel better sooner or later!
i think you just need a little more lauren in your life. ;)
xoxox
(pls ignore the fact that I basically just had a convo with myself, lol)
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Iam: kajwioeuaedjahg abalajba faiwej dblah i dont know
Today was pretty gay, like besides from seeing ceeN, we were kinda bored outta our minds and we watched 500 days of summer. (L) it was kyyyoottt.
and FUCK square one , you fucking see every fucking person you do notttt want to run into.
seeinggg as i have my blog like, publicized on facebook, lol.
i don't give a FUCKK if you read this, i actually hope you will.
cause the next few sentences are for you
Yeah, I am a bitch, the biggest one i can be, but only to you
you know what you did, yeahhhh i forgave you
but those were just words.
get it? I'm allowed to be a bitch to you, cause I can
I'm not the one who did wrong, it was all you
I did NOTTT do SHIT, as much as i wanted to..
I can say that I'm over what you did, cause I am
but after that day, you were a totally different person
I saw through you, and I still can to this day
honey, you can't fool me, why even bother?
cause i am definitely not trying to fool you.
be real & cut the crap!
Maybe I'm being a littttle harsh, but seriously, you aren't a good guy.
I wish everyone else could see that.
Today was pretty gay, like besides from seeing ceeN, we were kinda bored outta our minds and we watched 500 days of summer. (L) it was kyyyoottt.
and FUCK square one , you fucking see every fucking person you do notttt want to run into.
seeinggg as i have my blog like, publicized on facebook, lol.
i don't give a FUCKK if you read this, i actually hope you will.
cause the next few sentences are for you
Yeah, I am a bitch, the biggest one i can be, but only to you
you know what you did, yeahhhh i forgave you
but those were just words.
get it? I'm allowed to be a bitch to you, cause I can
I'm not the one who did wrong, it was all you
I did NOTTT do SHIT, as much as i wanted to..
I can say that I'm over what you did, cause I am
but after that day, you were a totally different person
I saw through you, and I still can to this day
honey, you can't fool me, why even bother?
cause i am definitely not trying to fool you.
be real & cut the crap!
Maybe I'm being a littttle harsh, but seriously, you aren't a good guy.
I wish everyone else could see that.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
haha
I am: Alrighhhhhhhhht.
I've decided that I put how I'm feeling whenever I post an entry because I AM irish, and I do tend to get really angry or really sad or really jealous or really happy, and i just say a lot of stuff I probs would regret when I read it again in a week.
I've decided that I put how I'm feeling whenever I post an entry because I AM irish, and I do tend to get really angry or really sad or really jealous or really happy, and i just say a lot of stuff I probs would regret when I read it again in a week.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
wait a minute
"who is she? certainly not me..
we should be..
but i'm not the jealous type.
I wont put up a fight.
i'll sit here and pretend that you and me are friends.
hold up, wait a minute, take a look at me a minute.
baby can you stay a minute longer
who am i to you, does she know?"
-Mila J.
we should be..
but i'm not the jealous type.
I wont put up a fight.
i'll sit here and pretend that you and me are friends.
hold up, wait a minute, take a look at me a minute.
baby can you stay a minute longer
who am i to you, does she know?"
-Mila J.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
'
Is it true? You really don't give a shit?
Coulda fooled me.
I'm actually trying. Digging deeper, to find some 'truth' in what you say and do
But maybe it IS the truth, I'm just too blind to see it.
Apparently I was too young to understand, too young to comprehend what was happening right before my eyes.
I do remember some of it, and I wish I couldn't remember it at all.
You are a manipulative, controlling son of a bitch.
I can only call you that behind your back, because I think I may possibly love you too much to hurt you.
I wish you could feel the same way about me.
You can't though, and that's pretty sad, considering I'm your baby.
Coulda fooled me.
I'm actually trying. Digging deeper, to find some 'truth' in what you say and do
But maybe it IS the truth, I'm just too blind to see it.
Apparently I was too young to understand, too young to comprehend what was happening right before my eyes.
I do remember some of it, and I wish I couldn't remember it at all.
You are a manipulative, controlling son of a bitch.
I can only call you that behind your back, because I think I may possibly love you too much to hurt you.
I wish you could feel the same way about me.
You can't though, and that's pretty sad, considering I'm your baby.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
:)
And maybe in time I'll tell you I'm a little bit in love with you.
P.S. Ryan Manalo, if you just so happened to be reading this...
I hope you enjoy, but I want you to know I now hate you forever.:)
P.S. Ryan Manalo, if you just so happened to be reading this...
I hope you enjoy, but I want you to know I now hate you forever.:)
"I used to give a fuck, Now i give a fuck less."
I USED to care sooo much about everything, but now I don't really give a damn.
Fuck what anyone else says, I'm living for Me.
For Myself, and I could do whatever I please when it comes to my future because
its My future.
So, I could care less what anyone else says.
Thanks for your advice for me and what i do,
but I'm sick of everyone looking out for me.
Let me do me
Let me live.
XoXo, Lo.
I USED to care sooo much about everything, but now I don't really give a damn.
Fuck what anyone else says, I'm living for Me.
For Myself, and I could do whatever I please when it comes to my future because
its My future.
So, I could care less what anyone else says.
Thanks for your advice for me and what i do,
but I'm sick of everyone looking out for me.
Let me do me
Let me live.
XoXo, Lo.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Hm.
So why do you love the person you love?
a) Because of what she does with you, or
b) Because of the natural effect she has on you
If your answer is a), you should be with me.
If your answer is b), you should still be with me.
If your answer is unclear, why can't you be with me?
I wish she wasn't so perfect for you.
a) Because of what she does with you, or
b) Because of the natural effect she has on you
If your answer is a), you should be with me.
If your answer is b), you should still be with me.
If your answer is unclear, why can't you be with me?
I wish she wasn't so perfect for you.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Let Love In.
When you love someone, why can't you just love? Love completely. No problems, no stupid arguements, no worries. You have each other, isn't that enough? And if it isn't, then what is?
Just forget the world and open your hearts for once.
LOve in the now, or else.
Xox, Lo.
Just forget the world and open your hearts for once.
LOve in the now, or else.
Xox, Lo.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
A night to forget
no matter how hard you cry, he's not gonna stop. So what's the point of crying? He's gonna keep going
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
i dont
I don't. I don't. I don't. Usually if I tell myself something a million times I start to believe it
So i don't ... I won't because I can't, and it's that simple! Willpower and Self- Control, baby.Hopefully I'm strong enough to stick to what I say this time...
So i don't ... I won't because I can't, and it's that simple! Willpower and Self- Control, baby.Hopefully I'm strong enough to stick to what I say this time...
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Fam First
Because that's how it's supposed to be. You see, as much as I like you, I have to pretend that I don't. If i actually admitted to liking you, I consider it to be betrayal. I would never ever betray my dad.
I'm kind of the only thing that my dad has.
You just can't replace my popppie, no matter how much of a jerk he was in the past. and maybe still is to this day.
And if you come in acting as if you're #2... it would just hurt him. (And it would hurt me a little too much)
I'm kind of the only thing that my dad has.
You just can't replace my popppie, no matter how much of a jerk he was in the past. and maybe still is to this day.
And if you come in acting as if you're #2... it would just hurt him. (And it would hurt me a little too much)
Friday, July 3, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
I just don't know
I want to be a doctor. I want to be a paediatrician... I think.
I want a family, and I want to have a healthy family, with children that would love me forever and Not get me mistaken for their babysitter...
So its got me thinking, What am I gonna do???
I thought I had my mind made up this whole time
I really want to be a doctor, really and truely. Like it's been my dream since foreverr
but it's also been my dream to have a beautiful functioning family with a husband that cares and with children who are always gonna run to me.
I honestly don't think that I can have both
Or maybe I'm just rambling, but I really don't want to grow up anymore
I want a family, and I want to have a healthy family, with children that would love me forever and Not get me mistaken for their babysitter...
So its got me thinking, What am I gonna do???
I thought I had my mind made up this whole time
I really want to be a doctor, really and truely. Like it's been my dream since foreverr
but it's also been my dream to have a beautiful functioning family with a husband that cares and with children who are always gonna run to me.
I honestly don't think that I can have both
Or maybe I'm just rambling, but I really don't want to grow up anymore
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Today was totally gay. I'm so sad that it isn't sunny and hot, because although I love the breezes, I hate the freaking rain and I can only tan in the really really hot beautiful weather we call SUMMER. Shit, I just want the rain to go away.
Guys are dicks, they're fucking animals that can't control themselves. Don't think before they act, don't think about the consequences, they just do what they want when they want. (not all guys though)
Oh and for the horny middle age men that stick their heads out their windows and whistle at teenage girls.. Your thirty, you are no longer fucking cute.
Guys are dicks, they're fucking animals that can't control themselves. Don't think before they act, don't think about the consequences, they just do what they want when they want. (not all guys though)
Oh and for the horny middle age men that stick their heads out their windows and whistle at teenage girls.. Your thirty, you are no longer fucking cute.
Friday, June 26, 2009
lol
omg one tree hill , the love relationships in it, is making my heart meltttt
like the things the guys do and the things they say, theyre so unbelievably cute and sweet and maybe even SO NOT REAL cuz 1 in a million guys would never say things like this in real life without trying to get in your pants but it's just totally adorable and maybe thats why i can't stop watching this show
I guess it shows how much i hate reality!
like the things the guys do and the things they say, theyre so unbelievably cute and sweet and maybe even SO NOT REAL cuz 1 in a million guys would never say things like this in real life without trying to get in your pants but it's just totally adorable and maybe thats why i can't stop watching this show
I guess it shows how much i hate reality!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
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He tells me his problems. She tells me her problems. Then we have the other two who can't just can't get along and get into serious fights almost every month.
this ain't no highschool shit either, this is my life, my blood, my fam.
I can't even call this a family anymore, we're so fucking disfunctional it's weird how I can ignore it.Okay maybe I'm boosting a little, but compared to the most of ya'll with your cute parents and cute family, mine is just terrible.
Of course we're not a typical family, my parents are divorced, not totally but sure, separated or whatever.
But people say that we're still a family even when parents are separated.
You know what I say to that? bull fucking shit
I don't eat family meals anymore, I don't even eat at "dinner time" I actually don't even have a dinner time. My mom has food ready, but it's no big for her because she just has take out most of the time...
I seriously wish I can have a family meal again. with everyone. no one missing. Because I haven't had that in 3 years, and I barely even had a full family meal back then. My brother started driving when he was sixteen, and since then he was so rebel-ish that he said he didn't want to eat with us. Then a couple years later my sister started driving, so she wasn't eating dinner with us either.
After that it would only be my mom and me and my dad. My mom and dad would be fighting over something... or "discussing" issues.
But where were those meals when we were all genuinely happy with each other? Oh yeah... we had those close to never.
My mom and dad aren't fully settled . My mom's asking for things that my dad says he doesn't have. Hey, I believe him ... I think
My mom and dad just had a fight.. and it's just stupid
I'm sick of all the fights and stuff
I've had people yelling in my house my whole life. literally. Not a day went by where there wasn't an arguement
So the question is
Does it ever stop? Will it ever stop?
No. It wont. Not the fighting ... not the threats... not the breakdowns.
In this fairytale, It won't end.
Too bad it's nothing close to a fairytale. it's reality, and I can't get away.
I know that some people's lives are way worst than mine, so I feel bad for even complaining about stupid shit like this
but imagine your mother and your brother saying that you can't see your own father anymore
what would you do?
That's okay, there's always better days
this ain't no highschool shit either, this is my life, my blood, my fam.
I can't even call this a family anymore, we're so fucking disfunctional it's weird how I can ignore it.Okay maybe I'm boosting a little, but compared to the most of ya'll with your cute parents and cute family, mine is just terrible.
Of course we're not a typical family, my parents are divorced, not totally but sure, separated or whatever.
But people say that we're still a family even when parents are separated.
You know what I say to that? bull fucking shit
I don't eat family meals anymore, I don't even eat at "dinner time" I actually don't even have a dinner time. My mom has food ready, but it's no big for her because she just has take out most of the time...
I seriously wish I can have a family meal again. with everyone. no one missing. Because I haven't had that in 3 years, and I barely even had a full family meal back then. My brother started driving when he was sixteen, and since then he was so rebel-ish that he said he didn't want to eat with us. Then a couple years later my sister started driving, so she wasn't eating dinner with us either.
After that it would only be my mom and me and my dad. My mom and dad would be fighting over something... or "discussing" issues.
But where were those meals when we were all genuinely happy with each other? Oh yeah... we had those close to never.
My mom and dad aren't fully settled . My mom's asking for things that my dad says he doesn't have. Hey, I believe him ... I think
My mom and dad just had a fight.. and it's just stupid
I'm sick of all the fights and stuff
I've had people yelling in my house my whole life. literally. Not a day went by where there wasn't an arguement
So the question is
Does it ever stop? Will it ever stop?
No. It wont. Not the fighting ... not the threats... not the breakdowns.
In this fairytale, It won't end.
Too bad it's nothing close to a fairytale. it's reality, and I can't get away.
I know that some people's lives are way worst than mine, so I feel bad for even complaining about stupid shit like this
but imagine your mother and your brother saying that you can't see your own father anymore
what would you do?
That's okay, there's always better days
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
June 22nd/23rd
Monday- kinda sorta but not really but KINDA helped lyna get ready for prom. lol. and then i went home at 4, thanks to alpha for driving me to lynas and then back home!!!!!!!!!!! anyways mah girl looked so beautifullll , and they were adorableleelelel !
Today- so i was supposed to wake up at 9:30 like i planned so i can get ready and shiet to meet cat and go to the mall w/ her but thennn this chika wakes me up at 9... :(
i wasn't very happy. lol
but yeah i woke up got ready and then i almost missed my bus but i ran for it. and then i was talking to my mom and she said she saw me and she laughed at me.
anyways, me and cat were roaming around the mall, went to gap.
bought clothes.
i stopped cat from buying useless things, and catherine was like... "what would i do without you lauren rodgers???" the truth is, she would be pretty devastated but she would never admit it (im totally joking btw. lolol)
and then we wanted to watch the proposal...
so we diiiiid and it was so so so cute like i loved it to pieces! i will watch it again and again and again
so we went home pretty early, and the sun was still burning hot so i decided to tan : )
1 hour, so now i have a little bitty tann. i'm gonna tan tmrw tooo, probs .
watched the game , and oth my new tv obsessions (L)
oh and i've been craving bubble tea forever and i had some at the mall today with cat
and then my mom comes home and says "lauren lets go to br for bbt." lol
so i did. and Now my day feels complete
goodnightiooooo
Today- so i was supposed to wake up at 9:30 like i planned so i can get ready and shiet to meet cat and go to the mall w/ her but thennn this chika wakes me up at 9... :(
i wasn't very happy. lol
but yeah i woke up got ready and then i almost missed my bus but i ran for it. and then i was talking to my mom and she said she saw me and she laughed at me.
anyways, me and cat were roaming around the mall, went to gap.
bought clothes.
i stopped cat from buying useless things, and catherine was like... "what would i do without you lauren rodgers???" the truth is, she would be pretty devastated but she would never admit it (im totally joking btw. lolol)
and then we wanted to watch the proposal...
so we diiiiid and it was so so so cute like i loved it to pieces! i will watch it again and again and again
so we went home pretty early, and the sun was still burning hot so i decided to tan : )
1 hour, so now i have a little bitty tann. i'm gonna tan tmrw tooo, probs .
watched the game , and oth my new tv obsessions (L)
oh and i've been craving bubble tea forever and i had some at the mall today with cat
and then my mom comes home and says "lauren lets go to br for bbt." lol
so i did. and Now my day feels complete
goodnightiooooo
Sunday, June 21, 2009
June 21st
Today was Fathers dayyyy, and my pops was M.I.A. cuz he went to freaking Florida and I didn't know when he was coming back. He's such a hoe
lol but we ate at swissss chalet (L)
and i was stumblingggggg on the internet, and i was dying over this for like 3 mins:
lol but we ate at swissss chalet (L)
and i was stumblingggggg on the internet, and i was dying over this for like 3 mins:
HOW TO TICK PEOPLE OFF
- Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies.
- In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sexual favors."
- Specify that your drive-through order is "TO-GO."
- If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.
- Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
- Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."
- Reply to everything someone says with "that's what you think."
- Practice making fax and modem noises.
- Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc" them to your boss.
- Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
- Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with prophesy."
- Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears and grimacing.
- Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.
- Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
- Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."
- Staple pages in the middle of the page.
- Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a croaking noise.
- Honk and wave to strangers.
- Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints at the cash register.
- TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
- type only in lowercase.
- dont use any punctuation either
- Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
- Repeat the following conversation a dozen times."DO YOU HEAR THAT?""What?""Never mind, it's gone now."
- As much as possible, skip rather than walk.
- Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce "No, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.
- Ask people what gender they are.
- While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.
- Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.
- Sing along at the opera.
- Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.
- Ask your co-workers mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about "psychological profiles."
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
idc
"Maybe, in your mind, you had me. But in my mind, you didn't have me completely.
My heart is still mine, and I'm no longer trippin over you. "I don't what to think I don't know what to feel I don't know where this life is
leading me I don't know what will happen next I dont know anything but I really
don't care.
I really really really really really really really really don't
care
I have changed my ways:
I'm not as nice as I used to be, I don't
care as much as I used to
talk shit, cuz I sure do
I have no problem
telling you I think you're a fucking bitch to your face
Usually what I say
is the truth, I don't lie or make up shit I aint like that
I think you're a
bitch, thanks for proving my point
I think you're a slut thanksssss for
proving my point Really
I used to care about you But not anymore
and I
think you are a big waste
Basically I'm done caring about people who
don't care for me
It's just a waste of time and energy
unneccessary pain
that could have been avoided
If you aren't gonna stay, then save me the time
Adios!
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The Joy Luck Club
This is such a goood movie. It made me cry (but what DOESN'T make me cry these days?) lol
It reminded me that some guys are such big dicks, but when you find the right one, oh they just make your days; and it shows that mothers are truly the fucking best.
It reminded me that some guys are such big dicks, but when you find the right one, oh they just make your days; and it shows that mothers are truly the fucking best.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
for 2 of my best girls
Hi darlings
I'm sorry I've been distant for the past few days and I'm really sincerely sorry
because I can't explain my weird mood swings and such
but I'm slowly coming back, by tomorrow I promise
I think its just cuz I'm stressed with school and stuff. but don't worry, Ill be back 100% realll reall soon
c:
I've just realized what you've been going through. I think I kinda forgot, because you always keep it to yourself and make it seem like you're okay
I'm honestly so sorry that sometimes I get annoyed with you and your problems, but its only cuz I forget about the hard hard times you're going through.
I realized when you were telling me about your dream, it hit me.
YOUR LIFE SUCKS. thats why me (and lyna) are here. to make it bettter!
i really tried to tell that girl what you're going through, to get her to understand.
i TRIED.
anyways, i love you <3
oh and thanks for always being here for me, even when you had shittier days than me, you stilll decide to help me instead of helping yourself
l:
HI HUNNY BUNCH.
like really, you're my girl and I back you up like no tomorrow. nooo tomorrow.
i just HAD to mention you in that long ass msg. :) thats how much love i have for you
and like thanks for always being here, never leaving my life. Like you know how much we all hate people who walk in and out of our lives... ahem . lolll. nuffff of those people, they just hurt us and they're just a waste, no? and Like, although i tell you everyday, you and ALPHABETSSSS are so cuteeeeee. LIke cuter than life. I love you guys, I want a relationship like you guys (L)
so basically, i love you my dear. see you tomorrow!!
LOVE YOU GUYS!
I'm sorry I've been distant for the past few days and I'm really sincerely sorry
because I can't explain my weird mood swings and such
but I'm slowly coming back, by tomorrow I promise
I think its just cuz I'm stressed with school and stuff. but don't worry, Ill be back 100% realll reall soon
c:
I've just realized what you've been going through. I think I kinda forgot, because you always keep it to yourself and make it seem like you're okay
I'm honestly so sorry that sometimes I get annoyed with you and your problems, but its only cuz I forget about the hard hard times you're going through.
I realized when you were telling me about your dream, it hit me.
YOUR LIFE SUCKS. thats why me (and lyna) are here. to make it bettter!
i really tried to tell that girl what you're going through, to get her to understand.
i TRIED.
anyways, i love you <3
oh and thanks for always being here for me, even when you had shittier days than me, you stilll decide to help me instead of helping yourself
l:
HI HUNNY BUNCH.
like really, you're my girl and I back you up like no tomorrow. nooo tomorrow.
i just HAD to mention you in that long ass msg. :) thats how much love i have for you
and like thanks for always being here, never leaving my life. Like you know how much we all hate people who walk in and out of our lives... ahem . lolll. nuffff of those people, they just hurt us and they're just a waste, no? and Like, although i tell you everyday, you and ALPHABETSSSS are so cuteeeeee. LIke cuter than life. I love you guys, I want a relationship like you guys (L)
so basically, i love you my dear. see you tomorrow!!
LOVE YOU GUYS!
Monday, June 8, 2009
Jon and Kate plus 8!!
Okay, honestly I love this show so much and I thank Catherine for getting me into it like... last year? YEAH. this show just really melts my heart and I smile the whole episode long.
My favourite is Alexis because I think she's the cutest one out of all the girls and she's cute and she has soo much love to give. Usually kids show more love to their moms but Alexis is always hugging her dad and stuffffff (L) aw!
like really, looook :
I kinda reallly love mondays :
1) because now that school's over I can sleep in on Monday's and not have to sign in late :)
2) jon and kate!!! !! ! !! ! ! ! !nuffff said
3) gossip girl of course... but that's not on till the summer:(
My favourite is Alexis because I think she's the cutest one out of all the girls and she's cute and she has soo much love to give. Usually kids show more love to their moms but Alexis is always hugging her dad and stuffffff (L) aw!
like really, looook :
I kinda reallly love mondays :
1) because now that school's over I can sleep in on Monday's and not have to sign in late :)
2) jon and kate!!! !! ! !! ! ! ! !nuffff said
3) gossip girl of course... but that's not on till the summer:(
Anywaysss back to rambling onto more important things in life :
SCHOOLS ALMOST OVER. 4 MORE DAYS. I'm happppppy : )
then summer school.... but W/E!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
june 7th
TODAY was great! although i am efffing tired, cause usually i get like, 6 hours of sleep
but today i got 4. =( because kaittttttt slept over and then she wouldn't let me sleep till 4! and i had to wake up at 8
so i woke up at 8 then got readyy, and then left my house by like 1030 ish? yeahh then went to mississauga valley, phillipine national day whaddup.... lol
so i was there walking around with my cousin and kimm, but then kait left
so it was me and kim just walking around the park for like 2 hours. my sandal broke =( and we had to do some nxt thing and tie it back together with her hairtie LOl
and then i left there at like 400?
yeah then went to dinner with my sister and my dad
my dadddd had told me about his FUCKING SCARY AS FUCK DREAM
OMFG....
so heres how it goesss :its long but I JUST NEED TO TELL IT
my grandma ( MOMS SIDE) died in 2006 on december 24, but she got really sick and collapsed on december 16
and my cousin had a birthday party before she got sick on around the 2nd or 3rd, and then we had broke something in the party room rental so my dad went to fix it
and then my grandma had asked my dad to fix her light in her house because it was like, dying and flickering and stuff
and my dad didn't get to fix it because my mom was being/... gay she was accusing him of being somewhereeee and blah blah
and my dad wa slike, i'm doing this for your mom
and then my grandma was like no just go home because she's getting mad
so then my dad never got to fix it...
and then she died.
and my dad had a dream about it like a while after she died. and he was with my cousins in my grandmas house
and it was the light that he didnt fix. it flickered then turned off.
and then my grandma in his dream was a lady with really long hair
IM ACTUALLY TOO SCARED TO FINISH THIS SO ILL FINISH IT TMRW.
but today i got 4. =( because kaittttttt slept over and then she wouldn't let me sleep till 4! and i had to wake up at 8
so i woke up at 8 then got readyy, and then left my house by like 1030 ish? yeahh then went to mississauga valley, phillipine national day whaddup.... lol
so i was there walking around with my cousin and kimm, but then kait left
so it was me and kim just walking around the park for like 2 hours. my sandal broke =( and we had to do some nxt thing and tie it back together with her hairtie LOl
and then i left there at like 400?
yeah then went to dinner with my sister and my dad
my dadddd had told me about his FUCKING SCARY AS FUCK DREAM
OMFG....
so heres how it goesss :its long but I JUST NEED TO TELL IT
my grandma ( MOMS SIDE) died in 2006 on december 24, but she got really sick and collapsed on december 16
and my cousin had a birthday party before she got sick on around the 2nd or 3rd, and then we had broke something in the party room rental so my dad went to fix it
and then my grandma had asked my dad to fix her light in her house because it was like, dying and flickering and stuff
and my dad didn't get to fix it because my mom was being/... gay she was accusing him of being somewhereeee and blah blah
and my dad wa slike, i'm doing this for your mom
and then my grandma was like no just go home because she's getting mad
so then my dad never got to fix it...
and then she died.
and my dad had a dream about it like a while after she died. and he was with my cousins in my grandmas house
and it was the light that he didnt fix. it flickered then turned off.
and then my grandma in his dream was a lady with really long hair
IM ACTUALLY TOO SCARED TO FINISH THIS SO ILL FINISH IT TMRW.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
June 4th
Today was so borING. My mom would not let me go to school today, and I was like whatt why? She was like, Lauren you're still sick, and I'm like. okay. lolllllllllll
So yeah, Day 2 of staying home and I'm still not sick of it. cause I'd rather be at home than at school. ... can't wait till summmer!!!!:)
8 days? apparently. I actually can't wait for the weekend. just one more day :):)
i get super excited over small things.
k well today I went to practice for that parade shiet for pnd, LMFAOOO
IT WAS HONESTLYYY HONESTLY SUCH A JOKEEE. i was laughinggg through the whole thing
w/e i'm a filipino and i'm PROUD to hold the flag..... . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
yeah, suchhhh a joke. hahaha it should be.. cute!
Oh, and I had a dream, of living in this small town/ city... and then Catherine was in my dream. and we both wished we had raspy voices, and so we went to this magic guy, and he put a spell on us and then my stomache was woozy... and then my voice didn't become raspy after all. :(:(:( then i was sad, but then my sister and her bf popped up and they were like this guys a joke i can do card tricks better than him. and so we were walking back to my house and then MY BAG GOT STOLEN... lol and then i was like WAIT WHERE'S MY BAG, and then we saw it. across the street just sitting there. and then we did some crazy movements my bag came back into my hands.
HONESTLY... my sickness is making me phsyco, even in my dreams.
but all in all , today was really boring, the highlights of my day was watching The Game. (L)
p.s. congrats to LYNA. ;)
So yeah, Day 2 of staying home and I'm still not sick of it. cause I'd rather be at home than at school. ... can't wait till summmer!!!!:)
8 days? apparently. I actually can't wait for the weekend. just one more day :):)
i get super excited over small things.
k well today I went to practice for that parade shiet for pnd, LMFAOOO
IT WAS HONESTLYYY HONESTLY SUCH A JOKEEE. i was laughinggg through the whole thing
w/e i'm a filipino and i'm PROUD to hold the flag..... . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
yeah, suchhhh a joke. hahaha it should be.. cute!
Oh, and I had a dream, of living in this small town/ city... and then Catherine was in my dream. and we both wished we had raspy voices, and so we went to this magic guy, and he put a spell on us and then my stomache was woozy... and then my voice didn't become raspy after all. :(:(:( then i was sad, but then my sister and her bf popped up and they were like this guys a joke i can do card tricks better than him. and so we were walking back to my house and then MY BAG GOT STOLEN... lol and then i was like WAIT WHERE'S MY BAG, and then we saw it. across the street just sitting there. and then we did some crazy movements my bag came back into my hands.
HONESTLY... my sickness is making me phsyco, even in my dreams.
but all in all , today was really boring, the highlights of my day was watching The Game. (L)
p.s. congrats to LYNA. ;)
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Gentlemen Don't
I'm still sick at home. I've been on youtube for hours...
i love love love gabe bondoc and aj rafael
YUP. they make my heart melt
i love love love gabe bondoc and aj rafael
YUP. they make my heart melt
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
i scream for icecreammmmmm
:( im sick. i was wearing 3 layers at school today and i was stilll freezing. so! i went home :) not going to school tmrw either because im still sick ya know.
so i watched tv then fell asleeep
and then woke up at 7 ish
what a day !
i was really hungry when i woke up
i ate like dinner , then cereal and a pop tart.
and i was craving ice cream like SO SO BAD
and my mom was like yeah ice cream 's good for your colds.
lollllol w/e, that made me happy =) ROLO ICECREAM, MMM :)
so i watched tv then fell asleeep
and then woke up at 7 ish
what a day !
i was really hungry when i woke up
i ate like dinner , then cereal and a pop tart.
and i was craving ice cream like SO SO BAD
and my mom was like yeah ice cream 's good for your colds.
lollllol w/e, that made me happy =) ROLO ICECREAM, MMM :)
Monday, June 1, 2009
I on't careee!
whaddup whaddup! k finally updates :
miss manila pageant had my weekend packeddd. I didn't win, but i on't cur! i had so much fun honestly. it's gonna sound gay, but it ain't bout winning. at least i had the balls to go , true nuff?
k so i made friends. 16 girls!
They sorta kinda made my sundays!
miss manila pageant had my weekend packeddd. I didn't win, but i on't cur! i had so much fun honestly. it's gonna sound gay, but it ain't bout winning. at least i had the balls to go , true nuff?
k so i made friends. 16 girls!
They sorta kinda made my sundays! now I'm gonna go crazy w/ pictures... SO SHUT UP AND LOOK. :)
probs the scariest moment of my life... honestly i was shaking getting the f'ing pappppper. but w/e I TRIED MY HARDEST
LOL try speaking in front of peopllllle with no clue what to say! hard shit!
its k though, i pulled it off
oh and this girl, hazel was my fave. she's prolly never gonna read this. oh well. she's the best!
and now for familia. : )
she was the greatest. running around for me. love her!
my beautiful familia <3
my biffles! love them love them love them they are the best of all bestttt!
tanks tanks for the sign, and tanks tanks for coming to support, and tanks tanks for loving me when I'm ugly and oily and cake faced and bitchy
love you love you girls!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
blah
I hate Mondays
especially today
i actually hate this whole week. 4 more days? 5 more days?
dunnnno but I'm shitting bricks
wait until friday. or saturday. omggggggggggggggg
K .
so i basically failed my history test today .
got catherine to help me FILL IN MY ANSWERS LOLLL
love chu baby!
and then today i was supposed to be on task and shit
but that didnt work out because!
i went to sleep and set my alarm for 5 to do my homework,
but i didnt wake up till 7.
and soooo i woke up and didnt start working till like, 9
FML! lol
so yeah i basically didnt study for french so I'm screwed but hopefully
it'll just come to me
and all i really studied for was science
I was supposed to start civics culminating today,
but i didnt . its due friday and I have no time to do it during the weeek
woooow I'm screwed
but its k. I got this
all i have to say is,
Wednesday, please come fast!
I miss my lynaaaa and I know it sounds homo but I really just can't wait to seeee her
she be my life! oh and catherine too...
Goodnight
especially today
i actually hate this whole week. 4 more days? 5 more days?
dunnnno but I'm shitting bricks
wait until friday. or saturday. omggggggggggggggg
K .
so i basically failed my history test today .
got catherine to help me FILL IN MY ANSWERS LOLLL
love chu baby!
and then today i was supposed to be on task and shit
but that didnt work out because!
i went to sleep and set my alarm for 5 to do my homework,
but i didnt wake up till 7.
and soooo i woke up and didnt start working till like, 9
FML! lol
so yeah i basically didnt study for french so I'm screwed but hopefully
it'll just come to me
and all i really studied for was science
I was supposed to start civics culminating today,
but i didnt . its due friday and I have no time to do it during the weeek
woooow I'm screwed
but its k. I got this
all i have to say is,
Wednesday, please come fast!
I miss my lynaaaa and I know it sounds homo but I really just can't wait to seeee her
she be my life! oh and catherine too...
Goodnight
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Smile
* Yes, i felt the need to type out this song. It's one of my favourite songs and it's beautiful.
Sometimes I sit at home, and wonder how it'd be
if he had loved me, truly loved me.
i learned a while ago that kinda thing, it never happens for me.
And so I go around and just pretend love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
make em laugh so they wont see
you never let em see you sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep
lord knows its killing me
sometimes i sit at home by the phone
Hoping he might call me, but he dont call me
But then i realized dreams come true, arent for girls like me
And so i go around with my head up like it aint nothing
and when the boys are out with all my friends
im into other things
cause you never let em see you sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep
lord knows its killing me
It's not as easy
Sometimes its hard to
It's not the life that i would choose,
But what else can i do if he dont love me?
If he dont want me?
im not about to sit around letting my self go
So i put on my makeup
Put a smile on my face
And if any one asks me
Everything is okay
Im laughing cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cuz im dying inside with my pride & a smile on my face
Sometimes I sit at home, and wonder how it'd be
if he had loved me, truly loved me.
i learned a while ago that kinda thing, it never happens for me.
And so I go around and just pretend love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
make em laugh so they wont see
you never let em see you sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep
lord knows its killing me
sometimes i sit at home by the phone
Hoping he might call me, but he dont call me
But then i realized dreams come true, arent for girls like me
And so i go around with my head up like it aint nothing
and when the boys are out with all my friends
im into other things
cause you never let em see you sweat
dont want them to think the pain runs deep
lord knows its killing me
It's not as easy
Sometimes its hard to
It's not the life that i would choose,
But what else can i do if he dont love me?
If he dont want me?
im not about to sit around letting my self go
So i put on my makeup
Put a smile on my face
And if any one asks me
Everything is okay
Im laughing cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cuz im dying inside with my pride & a smile on my face
Saturday, May 23, 2009
i very much dislike manwhores
today. woke up late and didnt go to school since it was half day
i watched 17 again and i cried. LOL. because of my family's private & personal life, get offfff my case
loafted at the mallll AS USUAL
Some people may call me a pussy cuz i just basically run away from my problems
Some people may call me a snob because I don't say hi to them or w/e
but you wanna know what?
i dont give a shit. because These people don't know how the effff i feel at all times
and I have a reason I act the way I do.
You really need to be in my position for a day to see that I really am hurting
and no, not from any boy. eff that shit
So yah, sometimes I just can't handle it anymore, and I really have a lot on my mind all day and all night, and I don't need another pointless issue to worry about
I understand we've been through shit, and it wasn't even a lot btw, and I was trying to put that aside forever. But you have to be a dick and be all awkward?
Tried to be your friend, clearly didn't work.
anyways. Main point of this:
I'm not a bitch, I'm not a pussy. (In this case** lol) But if you block me out of your life, what do you expect? Me to just come running to you ?
Hunny, you need a wake up callll.
girls talking shit= trouble. good luck! :)
*if you think this about who you think its about, you're probably a hundred percent right.
i watched 17 again and i cried. LOL. because of my family's private & personal life, get offfff my case
loafted at the mallll AS USUAL
Some people may call me a pussy cuz i just basically run away from my problems
Some people may call me a snob because I don't say hi to them or w/e
but you wanna know what?
i dont give a shit. because These people don't know how the effff i feel at all times
and I have a reason I act the way I do.
You really need to be in my position for a day to see that I really am hurting
and no, not from any boy. eff that shit
So yah, sometimes I just can't handle it anymore, and I really have a lot on my mind all day and all night, and I don't need another pointless issue to worry about
I understand we've been through shit, and it wasn't even a lot btw, and I was trying to put that aside forever. But you have to be a dick and be all awkward?
Tried to be your friend, clearly didn't work.
anyways. Main point of this:
I'm not a bitch, I'm not a pussy. (In this case** lol) But if you block me out of your life, what do you expect? Me to just come running to you ?
Hunny, you need a wake up callll.
girls talking shit= trouble. good luck! :)
*if you think this about who you think its about, you're probably a hundred percent right.
Friday, May 22, 2009
i've been crying rivers, and i don't know why. i really just can't explain my tears, they just fall..
Today, I've realized that life is so hard. and you can try and cry your fears and problems away, but they aren't going to leave you until you overcome them.
I try my hardest not to break down in tears, but when I do i get right back up.
I've come to the realization that I have to keep fighting for myself, because someone else for damn sure wont.
All i know, I'm never gonna quit. ever. ever. ever.
Today, I've realized that life is so hard. and you can try and cry your fears and problems away, but they aren't going to leave you until you overcome them.
I try my hardest not to break down in tears, but when I do i get right back up.
I've come to the realization that I have to keep fighting for myself, because someone else for damn sure wont.
All i know, I'm never gonna quit. ever. ever. ever.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
breaking point
i've reached my breaking point?
okay im sooo boosting. but honestly i'm loafting so hard when i really shouldn't be loafting atttt all. 10% off history culminating cuz i handed it in late. like wtff!
but the sad part is that i really dont even care
long weekend was no fun for me at all, culminating and working with my cousins helping them with their homework, radio show. ughhh effff man, it was the gayest weekend ever . i was looking forward to sleeping in and shiet, but i ended up doing work. :(
its my fault . but still. i dont care.
and my teacher gets mad at me for not doing my homework the second or third time this semester. "lauren its becoming a bad habit" when other people fully don't finish their homework even more than me. shit man. pisssses me off!
anyways , lifes moving a bit too fast
i wish i can stop for a sec. pause life. take it in , and get effing organized
2 tests tmrw. civvics & history . don't even have my history binder, thus meaning i'm craming during classes, but i cant cram during french because apparently im a TERRIBLE student, and i cant study during 3rd period science cuz she's scary
so basically screwed for my life? i miss one effing day and everything comes at me like this
lol crazy shit
i'm taking it one day at a time. only tomorrow as a true day of school, then carnival day! which means FREE DAYYYY
so happy with life.
gotta go sleep off my worries
p.s. i miss lyna in my life
okay im sooo boosting. but honestly i'm loafting so hard when i really shouldn't be loafting atttt all. 10% off history culminating cuz i handed it in late. like wtff!
but the sad part is that i really dont even care
long weekend was no fun for me at all, culminating and working with my cousins helping them with their homework, radio show. ughhh effff man, it was the gayest weekend ever . i was looking forward to sleeping in and shiet, but i ended up doing work. :(
its my fault . but still. i dont care.
and my teacher gets mad at me for not doing my homework the second or third time this semester. "lauren its becoming a bad habit" when other people fully don't finish their homework even more than me. shit man. pisssses me off!
anyways , lifes moving a bit too fast
i wish i can stop for a sec. pause life. take it in , and get effing organized
2 tests tmrw. civvics & history . don't even have my history binder, thus meaning i'm craming during classes, but i cant cram during french because apparently im a TERRIBLE student, and i cant study during 3rd period science cuz she's scary
so basically screwed for my life? i miss one effing day and everything comes at me like this
lol crazy shit
i'm taking it one day at a time. only tomorrow as a true day of school, then carnival day! which means FREE DAYYYY
so happy with life.
gotta go sleep off my worries
p.s. i miss lyna in my life
Saturday, May 16, 2009
i love history culminating!
i'm lying. i hate it. hate it. hate it.
i only hate it because i have to do 20 effing cards in 3ish days.
it's really easy but it takes so longgggggggggggggggggg. i'm such a damn loafter
i wanted long weekend to come. but now i dont.
i wish i was a bear. so i can hibernate during the shitty weather.
in my case. shitty days. shitty weeks. iuno. w/e
i also wish, i could speak japanese. like honestly... their language is soo cool !
me and my freggin wishes.
i think of these while im bored. =)
i was in class watching some documentary of them speaking jap. and i was like... so amazed. but then i couldn't understand what they were saying and i didn't feel like reading the words anymore so i was like. eff this. and i closed my eyes. best 30 mins of my day!
anyways. when i got home i went out.. w/ cath. mall. duh.
then got home... did my science project which i totally forgot about
and now im working on history. i was supposed to be on card like, 10 right now
but i had to do my science project first =*(
oh well
i only hate it because i have to do 20 effing cards in 3ish days.
it's really easy but it takes so longgggggggggggggggggg. i'm such a damn loafter
i wanted long weekend to come. but now i dont.
i wish i was a bear. so i can hibernate during the shitty weather.
in my case. shitty days. shitty weeks. iuno. w/e
i also wish, i could speak japanese. like honestly... their language is soo cool !
me and my freggin wishes.
i think of these while im bored. =)
i was in class watching some documentary of them speaking jap. and i was like... so amazed. but then i couldn't understand what they were saying and i didn't feel like reading the words anymore so i was like. eff this. and i closed my eyes. best 30 mins of my day!
anyways. when i got home i went out.. w/ cath. mall. duh.
then got home... did my science project which i totally forgot about
and now im working on history. i was supposed to be on card like, 10 right now
but i had to do my science project first =*(
oh well
Thursday, May 14, 2009
tired like F*#$ !
Last night, i couldn't sleeep. Sad Times. I fell asleep at 4 : ( woke up at 7 and i was like dead.
After school i volunteeredd :) then went to bubbble tea 168. mangoo bubbble teaaaaaaaa!
was craving it like mad.
So then me and dan. x2 +rachelle walked alll the way to the effing mall
from mavis and eglinton.
lololololl. 40 mins. cuz we're AMAZINGG!
it was pretty nice tho, not gonna lie. the weather and shiett.
stayed at the mall for a bit then went home. then went back to the mall with my mom an hour later. haha!
then i came back home. and ateee, cuz i hadnt eaten alll day. :S and then did my homework... ish
i did not study civvics but oh well
and i did not finish answering my questions even though i said i would.
i also did not start science project orrrr culminating. both due tuesday
lifes tough.
gotta catch up on sleep. cuz i can't even nap tmrw
long weekend, can you come annnnny slower?!
After school i volunteeredd :) then went to bubbble tea 168. mangoo bubbble teaaaaaaaa!
was craving it like mad.
So then me and dan. x2 +rachelle walked alll the way to the effing mall
from mavis and eglinton.
lololololl. 40 mins. cuz we're AMAZINGG!
it was pretty nice tho, not gonna lie. the weather and shiett.
stayed at the mall for a bit then went home. then went back to the mall with my mom an hour later. haha!
then i came back home. and ateee, cuz i hadnt eaten alll day. :S and then did my homework... ish
i did not study civvics but oh well
and i did not finish answering my questions even though i said i would.
i also did not start science project orrrr culminating. both due tuesday
lifes tough.
gotta catch up on sleep. cuz i can't even nap tmrw
long weekend, can you come annnnny slower?!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I'm a failure.
School was okayy. nothing out of the normmmmmm.
came home and took a nap even though i said i wasn't going to this whole week
woke up at 7: )
i said i wasn't gnna go on the compy. or watch tv .. and i could not last.
so yeah.
i have to do culminating -> lost my rubric.
i have to do science project -> lost my rubric.
like wtf?!
I never lose my homework shit. EVERRRR.
i'm sitting herelistening to music because i literally don't know what to do.
science quiz tmrw... big waste, still havent studied for it either.
FML harD?
I`m gonna start at 1030 for sure : )
came home and took a nap even though i said i wasn't going to this whole week
woke up at 7: )
i said i wasn't gnna go on the compy. or watch tv .. and i could not last.
so yeah.
i have to do culminating -> lost my rubric.
i have to do science project -> lost my rubric.
like wtf?!
I never lose my homework shit. EVERRRR.
i'm sitting herelistening to music because i literally don't know what to do.
science quiz tmrw... big waste, still havent studied for it either.
FML harD?
I`m gonna start at 1030 for sure : )
Monday, May 11, 2009
green tea & halls & waterfalllls
To my dearest throat:
i hope you die a slow and horrible death.
i hope you die a slow and horrible death.
-yours truly.<3
firsttt, happy mother's day mommmmma! <3>
yes, i'm aware that it is nottt mother's day anymore. who givesss
today was pretty chillllll, woke up at 2 today :D:D:D! my first weekend waking up late in a longgggg time.
took a shower then loafted till my sister came hoame. got ready then kyle came. we left, went to famjam, which i had to leave early :( for practice.
practice from 6-830 ishh, and i was like famished! so i ate at swissss chalet with the pops <3
then yeah, came home
studied. like ughhhh.
and now i'm just tired as fcuk ! i'm off to bed, it's effing 1 am and thats late enufff for me
p.s. thanks for wasting like 30 seconds of your time reading that =)
yes, i'm aware that it is nottt mother's day anymore. who givesss
today was pretty chillllll, woke up at 2 today :D:D:D! my first weekend waking up late in a longgggg time.
took a shower then loafted till my sister came hoame. got ready then kyle came. we left, went to famjam, which i had to leave early :( for practice.
practice from 6-830 ishh, and i was like famished! so i ate at swissss chalet with the pops <3
then yeah, came home
studied. like ughhhh.
and now i'm just tired as fcuk ! i'm off to bed, it's effing 1 am and thats late enufff for me
p.s. thanks for wasting like 30 seconds of your time reading that =)
Saturday, May 9, 2009
i wanna know how it feels to lose my arm, look for it, then find it and hold it. like those people did in the wars.
i wanna know how it feels to be shot.
i wanna see what life flashing before ones eyes really is.
i want a boy to chase after me only to realize hes too late.
^ all just cuz i'm so curious. (except the last one, thats for my personal satisfaction)
Hi there. I'm Lo. =) I'm sitting at home, but I wouldn't wanna be out because it was such a crappy dapppyyy day. I woke up late and jumped into the shower, then my hair turned out like whackkk, and i put it up and it was just w/e. I couldn't wear what I planned cuz of the ugggy weather. I went to singing lessons, it was rough. I felt sick after, so me and my mom ate. burger king, ughhh made me more sick. and then i went to get my dress fitting, and i wasn't looking forward to that either. but omggggg i actually loved it! cuz of the guyy, he like made my day. i was laughing like the whole time. omgosh after talking to him it was sunny. and i was so much happier with life. so i came home and helped my mom make dinner before she left. and now here i am. finding out that gossip girl's season finale is in like 2 weeks?!? breakingggg my heart! that is my fave fave show and like without it my weeks are kinda incomplete.
anyways. I'm wearing my oversizeddd green caridgan from american apparel. my favourite home sweater. <3>
k so i don't feel like typing anymore ishhhhh, so goodbye.
thanks to the dress designer, american apparel, and rin on the rox, for being so amazingly amazing. you made my day =*)
i wanna know how it feels to be shot.
i wanna see what life flashing before ones eyes really is.
i want a boy to chase after me only to realize hes too late.
^ all just cuz i'm so curious. (except the last one, thats for my personal satisfaction)
Hi there. I'm Lo. =) I'm sitting at home, but I wouldn't wanna be out because it was such a crappy dapppyyy day. I woke up late and jumped into the shower, then my hair turned out like whackkk, and i put it up and it was just w/e. I couldn't wear what I planned cuz of the ugggy weather. I went to singing lessons, it was rough. I felt sick after, so me and my mom ate. burger king, ughhh made me more sick. and then i went to get my dress fitting, and i wasn't looking forward to that either. but omggggg i actually loved it! cuz of the guyy, he like made my day. i was laughing like the whole time. omgosh after talking to him it was sunny. and i was so much happier with life. so i came home and helped my mom make dinner before she left. and now here i am. finding out that gossip girl's season finale is in like 2 weeks?!? breakingggg my heart! that is my fave fave show and like without it my weeks are kinda incomplete.
anyways. I'm wearing my oversizeddd green caridgan from american apparel. my favourite home sweater. <3>
k so i don't feel like typing anymore ishhhhh, so goodbye.
thanks to the dress designer, american apparel, and rin on the rox, for being so amazingly amazing. you made my day =*)
"Goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means to world to you, espcially when goodbye isn't what you want..."
Why can't you both be happy? like.. it seems as if when she's happy, you're depressed. and when she's sad, you're all smiles. All i know is that you can't have them... both. Give it up, as sad as it is, it's over. It's done. Even if it feels like hell right now, everything's going to slowly come together. Don't be selfish, it's time to let her go.
Friday, May 8, 2009
whaddddup
today was gay gay gay.
went to school, and i was actually energized today =)
then, meee being the mall rat that i am, went to the mall.
met up with cat for a bit,
congrats cattty booo ! freeeeee timothy's allday erryday, eyy! ;)
k then i was loafting around the mall. had to go for dinner with my popsss and my sister, and my sister told me to stay at the mall.so i loafted for like 2 hours ish =*{. sad times. walked around the mall a gajillion times.
and then i bumped into my dad. LOLLL it was the weirdest thing.
ate at jack astors then came home and sang with my mommmsy. =)
my neighbour rings the doorbell and tells us to turn it down. like WTF we werent even loud and it was like 9.
whatevssssssss my neighbours a b word.
then yeahhh here i am! blogging while i should be studying. i'm going to fail civics. civiccccccccs . like easiest course? i know.
i don't feel like going to classes tmrw. probly become 'sick' second period and go home the rest of the day.
went to school, and i was actually energized today =)
then, meee being the mall rat that i am, went to the mall.
met up with cat for a bit,
congrats cattty booo ! freeeeee timothy's allday erryday, eyy! ;)
k then i was loafting around the mall. had to go for dinner with my popsss and my sister, and my sister told me to stay at the mall.so i loafted for like 2 hours ish =*{. sad times. walked around the mall a gajillion times.
and then i bumped into my dad. LOLLL it was the weirdest thing.
ate at jack astors then came home and sang with my mommmsy. =)
my neighbour rings the doorbell and tells us to turn it down. like WTF we werent even loud and it was like 9.
whatevssssssss my neighbours a b word.
then yeahhh here i am! blogging while i should be studying. i'm going to fail civics. civiccccccccs . like easiest course? i know.
i don't feel like going to classes tmrw. probly become 'sick' second period and go home the rest of the day.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
i free my mind
today i was sitting in class taking in life. lmao
i was like, what if i was dead before, and i came back alive in a different body?
the next time i die i wanna come back as a frog : )
so i stayed after school. rolled pennies for community service hours. how cute is that?
i now have 1 hourrrrr of community service and i'm proud
its reallly ugly outside right now, and i haven't taken a nap in ages
so goodnight =)
i was like, what if i was dead before, and i came back alive in a different body?
the next time i die i wanna come back as a frog : )
so i stayed after school. rolled pennies for community service hours. how cute is that?
i now have 1 hourrrrr of community service and i'm proud
its reallly ugly outside right now, and i haven't taken a nap in ages
so goodnight =)
bullshittters, liars, fakes and snakes make me l o l
the effing title says it all, no?
i'm so past being angry at them, that i just laugh.
don't just talk to talk. if you're gonna say something then make sure it's the damn truth.
and when you say forever, it means for fucking ever. and if you don't plan on staying in my life for very long, then don't even open your mouth. true?
i love my bfffls kb cn lt, cuz theyre here for me they keep me sane they hold it down they keep it real. lolllllllllllllll. but forreal, they are my truesttt, and the truest are the ppl you need in your life.
i was so naive. i still am, but at least im learning now.
a person can never break out of their bad habit forever.
if they were like that once, they will be like that for the rest of their livessss.
my mother had been telling me that since time, but i just refused to listen to her.
now i understand what she's been talking about...
like in my opinion, i've been through alot. not physically, but i've seen a lot, i've been hurt a lot, and now everythings an effing joke.
it's sad how heartbreakers can't even really break my heart anymore.
and if they can't break it, then who can? definitely not you.
i'm so past being angry at them, that i just laugh.
don't just talk to talk. if you're gonna say something then make sure it's the damn truth.
and when you say forever, it means for fucking ever. and if you don't plan on staying in my life for very long, then don't even open your mouth. true?
i love my bfffls kb cn lt, cuz theyre here for me they keep me sane they hold it down they keep it real. lolllllllllllllll. but forreal, they are my truesttt, and the truest are the ppl you need in your life.
i was so naive. i still am, but at least im learning now.
a person can never break out of their bad habit forever.
if they were like that once, they will be like that for the rest of their livessss.
my mother had been telling me that since time, but i just refused to listen to her.
now i understand what she's been talking about...
like in my opinion, i've been through alot. not physically, but i've seen a lot, i've been hurt a lot, and now everythings an effing joke.
it's sad how heartbreakers can't even really break my heart anymore.
and if they can't break it, then who can? definitely not you.
one!!!!1
my first time blogggging ever in my life. first time finishing my homework before 12! biggg moments today!
lyna tran is amazing because she made this for me. i love you lynicles =)
lyna tran is amazing because she made this for me. i love you lynicles =)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Oh my dear loverrrrr.
Lauren Rodgers,
I love you :) . And this is your blog, your place
to share everythingand anything you need to let out.
Or say how much you love me.
You're welcome for making you one.
Love you bestfriendddd.
to share everythingand anything you need to let out.
Or say how much you love me.
You're welcome for making you one.
Love you bestfriendddd.
lynatraaaan.
♥
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