quickie

I am tired

Whenever i friggen blog I'm always tired
but seriously, right now I'm so tired
I need to start getting into proper sleeping patterns cause uhhh
Hell's bout to start in like 1 week
BOOOOOO!
so I'mma update on my life tmrw. :)

Nickels for my thoughts.

I am mad.

Lemme tell you something :
This is not Fantasy Island, it's the real deal. It appears you got your dream world mixed in with reality, but now I'm stuck up in this mess. Everyone's caught up in this mess. Do you think I'm stupid? I may have been before but now, I see everything crystal clear. If you loved us then why couldn't you just let us in? You should think about what you have right now, and not what you COULD have. But the damage is already done. You're already losing me.
But when it comes down to it... you've always been there for me. So.
I'll come around, maybe tomorrow maybe next week maybe next month but not right now.
Maybe if you just let it all out that night... then I would feel differently
Maybe when I call you back, you return the call (because i did call you back) I would feel differently
But you didnt
So That's how I feel about this whole little situation
Like I said, I'll come around.

whaaa

I am.. dunno.

c",)

^K i figured out what that faceee was, and I was like laughing when Markkk finally pointed it out for me.

To kimberly:
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear kimberly,
Happy birthday to you!

Mmhmm, I know it's late on here, but yeah I'm pretty sure I greeted you on facebook like 10 times : ) HAHAH
tuesday, me + you + sandy with party hats... LOL KIDDING

kk so i NEEEEED to make a sephora trip like NOWWW, cause I'm on the website and I just wanna go and buy errything in there! Oh and I'm going to Tremendous todayyyyy! what whattt! I'm seriously so excited.. I've wanted to eat there since my sister brought home her leftovers :(:(:(:(
but now she's taking me :) and if she doesn't take me to sephora then umm...
I think I MIGHTT possibly just go to the mall by myself and go kerazy in that store

I'm about to go to sleep soon, because I think I'm actually tired before 4:30.
I'm listening to musiccc, and I've been listening to the same songs the wholee day !

playlist:
Houstatlantavegas Remix.
No Parade
Promise In the Dark
Hush Hush
How Many Times How Many Lies
Teardrops On My Guitar

(yeah.. taylor swift is pretty random in this little thang.)
ANyways,
i think i might just sleep now..
or not and just stay up. I don't even know what I do to pass the time!

no more.

I am angry/sad/CON-FUCKING-FUSEDD.

I am not lying, today was so shitty.
I actually fell asleep at FRIGGGGGGGEN. 6AM lol
and then I skipped singing today because I wanted to sleep in:)
Then i went to some nxt party with my daddy,
like he was the friend of the person who held the party, but it was all his family and shiet so it was kinda awkward cause there was no people to talk to :(
So i got there at like 5:00, and we left at freggin 10:30!!!!!!!!! suckS!
i went to the washroom like 6 times cause I had some bladder problem today
i swear i peed like 8 or 9 times in totallll. hahaha
oh then i got home and MY BROTHER LEFTT
I WAS SO HAPPY WITH LIFE OMGOMGOMGOMG you don't even know. my dad was driving through to go to my house, and then my brother passed by us. and i did a little dance cause I was like, YESSS i could go out.
and then i got home and my mom was like, your brother's sleeping @ his gf's house tonighttt. and then i screammmmmmed with joy!
and then i texted lyna. twice. and called her. twice. and she fucking didnt fucking answer and i wanted to kill her during that whole hour.
so everything was being like stalled and stuff
and we were all loafting hard, until finally alpha called and then lyna was like, igght. and shiet.
so we left. timmmmmys! and now... here i am!
but like.. i unno
iunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnno.

Yay for Allergies!

I am tired and all stuffy and shiet!!

UGHHH, okay so today... friday aug. 21st, i fell asleep at 6 am and had to wake up at 1130 i was sooooo sad, cause it was only 5 hours :(:(:( and then it turns out i didnt even have to leave until around 230! sad times sad times.

And I am seriously soso tired right now! lol i wish i could sleep but something's keeping me up
I worry too much sometimes
oh and you know what else is keeping me up?
FRIGGGGGGGEN. ALLERGIES. i just got them now
and my nose is itchy like fckkkk! oh my goshers I just really wanna get some sleep tonight.

i am okay.

Just one day at a time, i will deal. It's all good. It will all be okay..
I have such bad memory now, it's terrible
it took me like 2 minutes to remember when i did today
haha. So, my mom wwoke me up like she called and started telling me to get ready
I HATEEEE people calling me and telling me to get ready like seriously
it makes me so maddd, haha. cause I'm cranky and I have to wake up and shower right away.
anyways, thats what i did today, because... well... I love shopping, duh.

So i went in hope of finding a perfect gift for Kimberly.. and of course I failed at it. Turns out me and Sandro are now buying a gift together
so tmrw we're going out... to the mall... cause we're having a teenage love affair.
OKayyyy not something to joke about? LOL KIM IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE READING, SORRY HAHAHAHA. i'm totally kidding!
we're goinggg to buy something cute for you, regardless. I hoppeee you'll like ittt!!

kk so i have to wake up at 11:30 and I find it really hard to wake up in the summer if i don't have like 10 hours of sleep... lazy fucking ass i already know
but yah. Going to sleep right now

Oh yeah, I have to start wearing my retainer, cause I haven't wore it in like 2 or 3 months... :S:S:S yeah SO BAD, and yesterday night i wore it and omg when i woke up, IT HURT LIKE A BITCH YOU DON'T EVEN KNOWWWW. LIKEEEEE OMG it's an undescribable feeling. actually no it's not, haha it kinda feels like it feels when you put your braces in for the first time... yeah .:( hahah so i woke up at like 8 and i was almost crying.
ANYWAYS, sleep time for real now : )

updatin x2

I am currently: okay.

Is there anything real in this world anymore? Cause the lights are gettin' brighter and plastic's all I ever see now.

I'm updating as much as i can remember.
Monday.. I can't remember. Of course. I think i just woke up and loafted in my beautiful likkle house.

Tuesday... I believe I was with CNuggets, and we watched the time traveller's wife <3
Seriously, it was so cute. We cried, lololol. but it is all good cause i liked it.
Then ran into my cuzzio + and her amigaaa. turns out we watched the same damn movie at the same time and we didn't even know.
and Apparently i saw her and some other person, and i didn't even know it was them bcause i am that damn blind now. GOshh, i need perfect vision again!
Oh and I took of my nails, maybe for a while times!
I am going back to pianoooo, I think it's final.
Put myself through sooo much pain tearing off those nails, geezzuh! but right when i took them off, I started practicing:)

Wednesday... to me, it isssssss still wednesday. but i didn't do anything fun. Just stayed home and loafted, the usual. Oh and played the piano for a while. Then went out and had pho with the mommadukes <3 she was flirting with the waiter toooo, omg. Lolll love her!

updatin!

I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought that it would be perfect to do so today, cause I'm so bored atm.
THURSDAY: I was plannnnning to stay in my bed, but of course that didn't work out so well. My sister called and told me we were going for dinner with my dad. I also bought my uniform + my school supplies. WTFFF, so not ready for school!!! at all!! ughh! Might I add that summer 09 was total lamesauce, mostly cause of the gay ass weather. I hate all this like random weather changes, like can't it be constant! I HATE CHANGE!

FRIDAY: I can't even remember what I did friday, no lie. I forget things easily, doesn't that suck.

SATURDAY: I went to 2 fam jams. The 1st one was kinda boring, cause it's my white side and they don't know how to get down like the flips. hahaha k totally kidding, but let's be serious... we were watching golf. But I wasn't really complaining , I like golf :)
2nd fam jam was kinda cute, kinda boring though. me and my little cuzzios, oh and my aunt too, were watching cake boss. :) and one of my cousins was a little chatterbox, i kinda love her cause she was just talking her life away and i enjoyed it (L)
Got home around 12 ish and then talked to Lbeans, and she was all "yo we're sneaking out tonight" and i was all "k i wanna come!" cause i'm just fuckin annoying like that. lol. so they came pour me and then we went to pick up Cnugz. we all went to portcredit, sadtimes, CUTETIMES, and scary times... ummmm fucken raccooons!!!!! Adawggg drove me home, and then i was like locked outta my house. freakin panicking like fuckkk! hahahaha sorry guys!!!! again!! Then I got home and Mmmmmmmuffins was totally doneeezo and we were on webcam... LOL! fuckn drunko for real! (exposed)

SUNDAY: slept till 2, lol. then woke up and did some shit, cant even remember. totally useless. then me and my sis got into a fight, sooo anger today. lol. but now she's my girlprend again <3 so i went to church after, and then i asked my momma to take me to the keg, then to br. LOLLL, MAJJORRRR craving for steak + bbt!!!

Bedridden... for a day at least:(

I am hurtinnnn'

So here I am in my bed. blogging, and watching a movie on my laptop.
Soon, I will shortly be free from my nightmare, but then I'll wake up and I think it will all start again.
When I wake up tho, I'll have my beloved ipod & my pile of books to get me through the day.
in bed. cause I def. will not get up very often
I haven't felt this pain in a long ass time
I WISH i had like, a fever right now or something. broken leg, sprained ankle..
k i lie bout the last two, but I think you get me.

Goodmorning&Goodnight.

I am........................ bored, tired, stupid!

I am an idiotic child for staying up this late for no apparent reason, seeing as I have to wake up at 10 am, and well umm, i LOVEEE my sleep.

I need to learn to say no.
Actually, I need to learn to be mean!
Actually, I need to learn to stick to my decisions I make.

So off to bed I go!

p.s. KimB: goooodluck today girly! I know how stressful exams are :S I always took my theory tests in a cafeteria, and it made me nervous. lolol
RCM IS SOOOO SURRRIOUS, even with filling out your name and stuff... hahaha!
but you'll do great, duh!
love love love you, hope you feel better sooner or later!
i think you just need a little more lauren in your life. ;)

xoxox

(pls ignore the fact that I basically just had a convo with myself, lol)

=)

I am boreddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

I slept early enough to see the sunrise.

Iam: kajwioeuaedjahg abalajba faiwej dblah i dont know

Today was pretty gay, like besides from seeing ceeN, we were kinda bored outta our minds and we watched 500 days of summer. (L) it was kyyyoottt.
and FUCK square one , you fucking see every fucking person you do notttt want to run into.
seeinggg as i have my blog like, publicized on facebook, lol.
i don't give a FUCKK if you read this, i actually hope you will.
cause the next few sentences are for you
Yeah, I am a bitch, the biggest one i can be, but only to you
you know what you did, yeahhhh i forgave you
but those were just words.
get it? I'm allowed to be a bitch to you, cause I can
I'm not the one who did wrong, it was all you
I did NOTTT do SHIT, as much as i wanted to..
I can say that I'm over what you did, cause I am
but after that day, you were a totally different person
I saw through you, and I still can to this day
honey, you can't fool me, why even bother?
cause i am definitely not trying to fool you.
be real & cut the crap!
Maybe I'm being a littttle harsh, but seriously, you aren't a good guy.
I wish everyone else could see that.

haha

I am: Alrighhhhhhhhht.

I've decided that I put how I'm feeling whenever I post an entry because I AM irish, and I do tend to get really angry or really sad or really jealous or really happy, and i just say a lot of stuff I probs would regret when I read it again in a week.

wait a minute

"who is she? certainly not me..
we should be..
but i'm not the jealous type.
I wont put up a fight.
i'll sit here and pretend that you and me are friends.
hold up, wait a minute, take a look at me a minute.
baby can you stay a minute longer
who am i to you, does she know?"

-Mila J.