"Goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means to world to you, espcially when goodbye isn't what you want..."

Why can't you both be happy? like.. it seems as if when she's happy, you're depressed. and when she's sad, you're all smiles. All i know is that you can't have them... both. Give it up, as sad as it is, it's over. It's done. Even if it feels like hell right now, everything's going to slowly come together. Don't be selfish, it's time to let her go.